I could get really carried away with this...

I thought I would have a little more fun with my post today.  Mr. B and I have still been doing some serious talking on the baby front, and we are trying to be smart and practical.  This week we changed our health insurance plan and started looking into OB's that are part of our new health network.  We have been talking about what we need to do financially to get ready and have been chatting about timing and ideally when we would like to really start trying.  So I promise, I have been good.  I have not been totally swept away by Pinterest pictures of cute babies and sassy onesies.  I mean, I've been partly swept away, but not totally.  Of course I have been thinking about all of the fun, cute stuff that comes along with having a baby.  It's much more entertaining to decorate a hypothetical nursery than to look up the average wait time at a particular doctor's office.  And thus, here we have this post.  My dream nursery.  You may notice a theme... (Click pic for original source, all pics via Pinterest.)

I guess if we ever have a girl, my color scheme is all set!  The good news is, if we had a boy, we could just replace the pink with a pretty blue!  But honestly, I'm trying not to let myself get too wrapped up in images like these and focus on the reasons we really want a baby.  All that pink is just a bonus!

Insomnia

I have been having the worst insomnia lately and it is driving me crazy!  It has never taken me this long to get back into a good sleep schedule before.  I am definitely a night owl, so when we are out of school, I stay up late and sleep in late, but usually within a week or two of being back at school, I am back on track.  This year, not so much.  Don't know if it is a work stress thing or a baby stress thing, but I am done with it!  The past three nights I have gotten in bed by 9:00, but haven't fallen asleep until at least 11:30.  So irritating!  To make the situation worse, I am trying to cut back on my caffeine intake, so I'm only stopping for coffee once a week.  No sleep + no coffee = one unhappy and irritable me!  That concludes my vent for the day, tune in next time for something much more exciting!

Why All the Secrecy?

I'm having a bit of a former blogger dilemma here.  In the past, one of the main goals in blogging was to have other people read my work.  I posted links on my Facebook and Twitter, joined link parties, and commented on others' blogs, all to try to increase traffic flow.  I'm struggling with this a little bit with this blog because the writer/Leo/center of attention seeker in me wants people to read my words, but another major part of me doesn't want the people I know to be reading my thoughts about getting pregnant.

One of the main reasons I don't want to talk about this stuff with people  I know is that I have been pretty adamant over the past couple of years about not wanting kids.  Like in an every time the subject comes up I vehemently deny the desire to ever procreate kind of way.  Things certainly didn't change overnight, but due to my stubborn nature (see Leo, above) I have not wanted to admit that images like this one now warm my heart instead of make me squirm.  (Click pic for original source.)

How could anyone not squee at this pic?!?!

I know that when the hubs and I do decide to tell people we are trying (which we aren't yet, just seriously talking about it) I am going to get a lot of crap from those who have constantly listened to me express my opinion about not wanting kids.  I am particularly scared about revealing my secret to my bff, who is firmly on the no baby train and not getting off anytime soon.  I know she will be supportive because she loves me, but I also know it will be difficult for her to understand this time in my life.

Add all this to the fact that I have several friends who have been trying to get pregnant for a long time, to no avail, and just as many who have suffered miscarriages.  I do wonder how they may feel if I were to get pregnant shortly after trying.  I put myself in their shoes and imagine the situation would feel pretty crappy, and I would never want to cause pain to any of my friends.

I guess it all boils down to this:  there are many reasons to keep this decision to myself (and my husband and my mother, and maybe a couple of understanding friends).  Luring in blog readers is not a great reason to spill the beans, so for now, I gotta keep a lid on it :o)

Me and the Hubs: A Love Story

So I thought I would spend some time filling you in on the basics leading up to mu current state of baby on the brain.  Of course the most important piece of this puzzle would be my darling husband.  The hubs and I met on our first day of teacher training, but didn't really get to know each other until I got transferred to the school where he teaches.  At the time, we were both seeing other people, but when we both ended up single, things fell into place.  Our first date was in the middle of May, by the beginning of June we were dating exclusively, and by August we were living together.  I guess you could say we just knew!  It's funny because if any of my friends were in that situation and were thinking of moving in with someone that quickly, I would tell her she was crazy!  But it worked for us!  We got married in July of 2011 and had the perfect wedding of my dreams (see below!).

One of the most amazing things about my guy is his ability to deal with my absolute craziness.  Once I have an idea in my head, I have a one track mind and I don't stop until I get what I want.  Hubs has always been super patient with me, letting me be my obsessive self.  I can honestly say that there is no one else in the world I would rather be with, and certainly no one I would rather have kids with.  He obviously is an integral part of the baby-making process, so I thought you should know a little about him and us before we jump into the deep end!  Happy Sunday!

Hello!

Hello to anyone out there who may be reading this blog!  I want to be upfront with you about one big thing:  I am writing this blog for me!  I have a tendency to start blogs when going through an important stage in my life.  When planning my wedding, I started a wedding blog.  When my hubs and I bought our first home, I started a craft/design blog.  And while I still have a love for both of those subjects, and could endlessly post about both topics, I always seem to run out of steam.  Blogging becomes a job instead of a hobby, and well, I already have one low-paying job (teaching junior high) and I can't really fit in another!

But I want this blog to be different.  If you've done the math, I've been through the wedding phase, the first home buying phase, and have moved on to the next logical stop: the baby phase.  This phase is different from the others in that it is hard to talk about it with others without hearing lots of different opinions and unsolicited advice.  And you know, a baby is like, kind of permanent--and a huge decision.  Needless to say, as someone just entering this phase, I have a lot of stuff on my mind.  And with the exception of my husband, I don't want to talk about all this stuff with many people.  But I am a talker.  And a planner.  And a bit if an obsesser.  So here we are.  A safe place for me to talk about worries, questions, problems, excitements, all the emotions that come with having the baby talk.

This is also a safe place for me to post all of my ideas and Pins (of course I am on Pinterest!) and all things cute baby related that I don't want other people to hear about.  If you do happen to find this blog, I hope you enjoy what you read.  Please feel free to comment--since I don't know you, it doesn't matter if you know about my forays into the world of babies!  And feel free to let me know if you are thinking/feeling some of the same things, it's always nice to have a little bit of company on some of these crazy rides.  Let's buckle up!