One of the main reasons I don't want to talk about this stuff with people I know is that I have been pretty adamant over the past couple of years about not wanting kids. Like in an every time the subject comes up I vehemently deny the desire to ever procreate kind of way. Things certainly didn't change overnight, but due to my stubborn nature (see Leo, above) I have not wanted to admit that images like this one now warm my heart instead of make me squirm. (Click pic for original source.)
|How could anyone not squee at this pic?!?!|
I know that when the hubs and I do decide to tell people we are trying (which we aren't yet, just seriously talking about it) I am going to get a lot of crap from those who have constantly listened to me express my opinion about not wanting kids. I am particularly scared about revealing my secret to my bff, who is firmly on the no baby train and not getting off anytime soon. I know she will be supportive because she loves me, but I also know it will be difficult for her to understand this time in my life.
Add all this to the fact that I have several friends who have been trying to get pregnant for a long time, to no avail, and just as many who have suffered miscarriages. I do wonder how they may feel if I were to get pregnant shortly after trying. I put myself in their shoes and imagine the situation would feel pretty crappy, and I would never want to cause pain to any of my friends.
I guess it all boils down to this: there are many reasons to keep this decision to myself (and my husband and my mother, and maybe a couple of understanding friends). Luring in blog readers is not a great reason to spill the beans, so for now, I gotta keep a lid on it :o)