Personal Post: An Update and Where Do I Go From Here?

Hello lovelies!  It has been quite some time since I have posted on a regular basis, and I'm not going to lie, most days I have been too tired to care!  But as I am starting to feel like more of a human being again (granted, still a human being who is growing another human being) I am starting to miss my usual past times of crafting and blogging.  I wish I had some awesome project to share with you today, but I don't because I have not done anything creative in the past five months!  Getting through the holidays was rough rather than enjoyable and the few times I sat down to write, nothing worthwhile could come into my exhausted brain, let alone make it from my brain to the computer.

In short, pregnancy has been tough so far.  Working full time and managing the exhaustion has taken a lot out of me.  Luckily, my dear husband and my friends and family have been awesome and so supportive, and that has made the whole process so much easier.  I have still managed to have some fun, which I will share with you tomorrow in my Instagram dump, but most of my days consist of going to work, coming home and going to bed.

I am now halfway through my pregnancy and things are starting to feel pretty real.  In four months, I will be responsible for another human being!  Panicked might be a good way to describe the feelings when I actually sit down and think about it.  But I have to start thinking about some of the practical things.  Like what am I going to do about maternity leave and child care?  And these are scary things to think about.  Because of our awesome timing, Baby Bee will be born at the end of the school year, which means both Mr. B and I will be off of work for the first two months of Baby's life.  Which will be awesome.

The hard part is what to do after.  I would love to cut down to working part time, which would be every other day for me at my current school.  But that is a scary thought.  Losing part of our income and giving up the security of my full time job is slightly terrifying.  But it may be the terrifying push that I need to really start trying to make something of my writing and blogging.  I have applied for a couple of freelance writing positions that, of course wouldn't pay all the bills, but would help if I were to go part time.  And there is the far off, someday dream of eventually making money blogging.  I know well enough by now (I have been blogging for over three years) that money from blogging does not come easily, but it is possible.

On the other hand, once that little one gets here, I might not care about blogging and writing at all!  As I have no experience in this area, I have no idea what life is going to be like come June.  All I know is that life is going to be changing, drastically.  As a planner and type A personality, it's hard for me to not be able to answer the question Where do I go from here?  I guess we will just have to wait and see.